Okay, so these are the two I'm thinking of getting, pretty much.

http://www.shopping.hp.com/webapp/shopping/series_can.do?storeName=computer_store&landing=notebooks&a1=Category&v1=Performance+and+entertainment&page=compare

HD 16t:
It's version with the bigger screen is really popular with computer reviewers where I could find them. The ones that were less expensive had a weaker graphics card. The total with my preferences will be $1,274 before the rebate and tax. I only have around 428 to my name right now, so if I got it, I'd definatly need to get it on credit, and would require a cosigner and all sorts of mess. But right now it has a free upgrade to 320ggig from 250, and a free upgrade to 4 gig memory from three. I can also get Vista 64 bit instead of 32 bit, not that it... really matters to me much. I don't understand why it's important? 6...volt? battery pack, or I could get a 12.


Dv7t
It says it has intel's's graphics card, but it has the ATI Radeon hd4530 instead of an Nvidea, but because it's cheaper, I could probably upgrade it more easily to the HD 4650. With that upgrade, it's 1099.99 without rebate or tax. It has a free memory upgrade to 3gig, and the 320 upgrade for space free, too. This one has an 8... volt? battery pack. I could also make it a white computer for 25 dollars! ohemgeee.


So, with a two-hundred dollar difference, is it worth it to upgrade to the NVidea from the ATI Radeon HD 4650?(That I'd be upgrading to the higher performance one), and get the 64 bit vista? Or is there some magic I'm missing?



My school friends want me to get a mac. I think that would be... not so clever of me to do. 2000 dollars for a computer is just.. not somethign I can do feasibly right now.

I gave in and got a twitter.

Jillybuff. Oh, heavensamercy.

Your result for What's your key signature?...

F Major

You're a little flat there, Romeo.

Take What's your key signature? at HelloQuizzy

... it's so true. Get some jazz ballad up in this joint and I'm GOLDEN.

Fun note: Band music (brass, etc) is usually in the Bs rather than the #s because it's easier to tune that way. Singers are either or, though. Sharp keys tend to be wiser. As you progress vocally, your voice just gets... really big. It's easier to keep in pitch if your mind is going "OH SHIT IT'S A SHARP NOTE. UP UP UP!" because bigger voices are more likely to go flat than sharp. My music for Italy? Two pieces with flats in the key signature out of 12. And those two are really mellow. Db is the Mother of keys, man. It's just so warm and comforting! But flat is commonplace. That is to say, going TOO flat.

By a long shot. Seriously, my choir? ahahahah some days.. The tenors could drown us a full step down...

I saw Twilight.

And I liked it.

A lot.

Please kill me, someone. Please?

Obama, for all intents and purposes, has won. I was a McCain supporter. I'll leave it at that.

Edit: You know? I won't leave it at that.

Obama is... he may be what's needed. A kick in the ass in electoral votes, by the way. 2/3rds state electoral?

If anyone missed his acceptance speech, go listen to it. It was actually pretty damn awesome. (I love you Mom, don't hurt me for thinking this may just work. Have a little hope- We can change! Yes we can! ((DAMN that is catchy))).


Everyone is leaving for NATS tomorrow. I'm not skilled enough to have been an participant. And right now I"m working on... a mezzo soprano aria.

Yes. She's kicking me right where it hurts. My shifting from the high notes to the even higher notes is bad, so she's lowering my songs until I can get the breaking notes right.

It hurts my pride. I'm a very prideful woman.

There is something theraputic about cutting your hair without your contacts or glasses on.

Don't worry. Just my bangs, and with my nose to the glass, I could see fine. I love playing like that, though, with my hair. I kind of want to learn how to cut my hair like... real hair. Not just my bangs. But that'd be dumb. Kristen, my sister, would kill me. She's a manager of a salon.

So my show is over- Project runway, that is. I wonder what else is on this season worth watching that I could just latch onto without having to have watched every damn season for the past 342 years.

Apart from that, not much going on. Have a concert on... shit. Monday. AHAHAH. That's funny. And then I got a 75 on my freaking Intro to Lit test. AUGH son of a bitch he was all "you're wise beyond your years, you just need to apply yourself more" and I'm all "SON OF A BITCH I HATE YOU."

I missed all of the ones from the Hadyn and Beethoven Symphonies. He didn't play the obvious motives, of course, so I got confused. Gah frustrating. Obviously it's a different piece, yes, but identifying over 2 hours worth of music gets... slightly stressful.

Off to go eat with a few friends. Nom nom food.

AUGH.

I gained weeeeight. Nooooo.

All this anger and stress is affecting me and I drank so much soda and I'M GETTING FAT. My favorite dresses wouldn't fit. My boobs/backfat is too much nooooo.

We are STARTING A DIET. For SERIOUS. Food diary and all. FOR SERIOUS.

This is one of those moments that I am going to use as a weirdo-meditation style recollection of the day.

Have any of y'all ever had one of those days that, while you were doing things, was just fine, but as you looked back you realized just how much you accomplished and had to take a nice, calming breath?

The class I've been so afraid of failing has been going.. so much better than the upperclassment told me it would. It's frightening how many people fail it or drop it, but, lo and behold, I'm still floating with a comfortable margin. Right now, I have an A. I'm praying I can keep it up that high, because I want to keep my GPA as high as possible.

School is never a fun topic to read about. I'm sorry.

I was talking to a guy who was in my choir about where he had been before he transferred/came here. He went to community college for his lower level classes, and then went on his mission. His station? Idaho, by an N. American reservation. Is it bad if I didn't know Idaho had a reservation? I tend to think of reservations being in drier, hotter areas. Anywho, it seems religion is just the theme of my semester, because we were having a lot of discussions on how different other churches are, and how Mormons have an amazing geographic system so everyone feels involved etc etc. It was cool.

It was also at my job, which I had almost forgotten to go to. Let's not EVER do that again, Jillian Anne. It was a concert that was supposed to be last week, but Ike came in, and so I thought it was rescheduled to next week, but no. It was yesterday. If Leslie hadn't been in the main room talking to someone, I would have missed work entirely and been fired like a dumbass. Talk about embarassing. Cut me some slack, though. I only work one recital this month. Anyone ever have a horrible job-ish accident like that?

... Parents are screwed, yes, and most of Nacogdoches (Nac) proper lost power.

The school, though? A few trees popped down, some minor damage that I'll check out tomorrow. Rain and wind. 's all. Hardly even noticed a thing.

I get lucky a lot when it comes to hurricanes, guys. Rita was supposed to go right to Houston, but it hit Nacogdoches when I wasn't here. Gustav hit Louisianna instead of Nacogdoches when I was here in Nac, and Ike hit Houston a lot harder than Nac, and I was supposed to go to Houston this weekend.

See? Lucky. People WISH they had this kind of luck.

Here's hoping Josephine just peters out in the Atlantic, though. This panic-over-every-hurricane-that's-around thing is getting tiring.

Shingles on our roof gone, so the family room is leaking a lot by my desk. My favorite tree in our front yard is half-torn. The next door neighbor's annoying tree is gone, now, too. The fence my dad fixed after Rita's gone. Sucks for him.

Here, it's really, really gusty. I'm on the north side of the tower, so our room's quiet, but I'm pretty sure that if I went to a southern room I'd be fucked.

EDIT:
Candace totally just saved me from a white t-shirt doom. Bahahah. We're going to go explore.

So if I die, y'all, it's because I'm a dumbass who got hit by a tree.

Parents are experiencing brown outs down in Houston.

Up here, no rain yet. Hurricane should make landfall in five hours.

I like how the only thing I can think of right now is Duffy. "Yeah, yeah yeah!

I'm begging you for mercy!
Why won't you release me?"

I'm a horrible person.

I hate my Intro to Music Literature class. I just hate it. I love the class itself, and I love listening to the guy talk about it because he's hilariously pushy.

But having to define what "apple.com" is is absurd. Explaining the importance of Baker's Biographical Dictionary of Musicians in a thorough manner is near pointless, save to make us aware the book exists, which easily could be done on our own during Music History when we write papers on Rossini or something.

Poppycock. So yes, this TTI is due tomorrow with 60 odd bits and pieces to put together for it.

Ten minutes later:

HOW DO YOU DEFINE WHAT THE CONTROL PANEL IS? FUCKING FUCK FUCK.

... so far, Gustav has come by way of annoying hair-frizzying drizzle and loud wind.

Mother fucker. I look like an 80s reject right now because the water stretched out my shirt so much, and my hair's so curly. Grooooss. People said I was cute, though, minus needing the 80s to take back their outfit. Today probably would have been a good day for pigtails *ramble.*

Berry successfully made it to England, so I have no voice this week, so I have a week to learn my songs and practice them to as-perfect-as-I-can-get-them quality.

My printer is broken, so I'll have to use friends when I need to print stuff. Color me annoyed. When we moved in, Dad dropped the thing on accident right after telling me to be careful with it.

Intro to Music Literature seems to be going fine. People aren't as enthused about it as I am, and apparently I pulled a dictionary today when I was defining what Art is (versus a work of art, artistry, or a display. If you want to be bogged down with the definition I gave, just ask. it's a fun conversation to have.)

Our Italy trip's music I think is the following, though this might just be this semester's. You can never tell with Dr. King:

"Leonardo Dreams of His Flying Machine" - Eric Whitacre
"All that Hath Life and Breath Praise Ye the Lord" - Rene Clausen
"Give Me Jesus" - L.L Fleming
"Cade la Sera" Ildebrando Pizzetti
"La Passeggiata" - Gioacchino Rossini
"Ave Maria" - Giuseppe Verdi (This one's pretty out there. It doesn't use a typical scale or mode. It uses the enigmatic scale. It's a pain in the ass, to tell the truth.)

OH MY GOD.

I was looking up the sixth harry potter movie, and what did I come across?

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0435651/

THE GIVER? AUGH! Did anyone read this book? It was -so- good and -so- sad.

Warning : A post about the distorting of the bible for the sake of art and expression.

It's cool. By Alberto Ginastera, who only wrote three choral pieces. Everything else was instrmental. But he moves around the chapters and sections of the book of Jeremiah in this piece to fit the situation his country was in- the communism/dictatorship in Buenos Aires in the 50s.

For some reason, bits of it really stick out to me. Just because of how he arranged that book of the bible.

THE FIRST MOVEMENT'S TEXT:
"Is it nothing to you, all ye that pass by? Behold, and see if there be any sorrow like unto my sorrow, which is done unto me, wherewith the lord hath afflicted me in the day of his fierce anger (Jeremiah, 1:12). Behold, O Lord; for I am in distress- my bowels are troubled; mine heart is turned within me; for I have grieviously rebelled: abroad the sword bereaveth, at home there is as death (Jeremiah, 1:20}. For these things I weep; mine eye runneth down with water, because the comforter that should relieve my soul is far from me: my children are desolate, because the enemy prevailed (1:16). Persecute and destroy them in anger from under the heavens of the Lord (3:66)."

The music to it is amazing. I love the part where we're like "et domi mors similis est!" because the guys are below us screaming "MORS MORS MORS MORS." (English: at home there is as death. Mors is death.}

Ginastera was a patriot. Did I mention that? Then there's a part where we're just screaming "inimicus! Inimicus!" which I'm pretty sure is close to the part where he's saying the evemy has prevailed. O: We're singing it in latin. Dr. King happened to give us a translation because he wanted us to understand the emotion behind the piece.


THE SECOND MOVEMENT'S TEXT:

"I am the man that hath seen affliction by the rod of his wrath (3:1). He hath led me, and brough me into darknes, but not into light (3:2). My flesh and my skin hath he made old; he hath broken my bones (3:4). He hath set me in dark places, as they that be dead of old (3:6). Also when I cry and shout, he shutteth out my prayer (3:8). And I said, my strength and my hope is perished from the Lord (3:18)."

I love how he takes out just enough to lose original context, but leaves in enough so that he doesn't get his ass whipped.

That entire section is all slow and languising and introspective. The sopranos rarely sing in it, because having four part would probably just ruin the quiet pain in the piece. O:

THE THIRD MOVEMENT'S TEXT:

"Remember, O Lord, what is to come upon us: consider, and behold our reproach (5:1). Turn thou us unto thee, O Lord, and we shall be turned; renew our days as of old (5:21). Thou, O Lord, remainest forever; thy throne from generation to generation (5:19). "

It's exactly how it looks. In the music, we're going hoarse from pleading those damn G#s.


Music is fun! :3 Thoughts on how he arranged it?

So. Um.

A few days ago, Kevin and I parted ways. It was something that seemed long in coming. We were having discussions about "the end" at least once a week since the beginning of May. Something went wrong, and I stopped being intimate, and would get angry when he would try. And conversations had been getting increasingly strained since March. I had college, and he had no idea where in the world he would be going when the place he worked at closed.

I, my dear friends, am a moron.

We had "that" talk. The one you never want to have, that can't be stopped once it starts. The one that shows you the three roads you can take. In our case, that was platonic, trying again for romantic, or burning the bridges.

I will never burn bridges. The choice was between letting things fall naturally in a romantic relationship, which could lead to burning, or taking the safest route and going to a platonic one. I chose the latter, thinking that it would be fine and I wouldn't be horribly upset because we would still be friends and could care about each other and call everynight and still sleep with each other's stuffed animals and if he found a new girlfriend that could make him happy all the better...

I, my dear friends, am a moron.

Yesterday I went out with friends of mine, crazy friends who are absolutely nuts, and nuts for each other. And seeing them be so teasing to each other and flirting and snuggling and falling asleep together... and I watched a movie, and the entire time I was there? I just... missed him. And wanted him. And was going to call him over and over and over and..

I, my dear friends, am a very lucky moron.

I called him when I got home today because I wanted to, and I wanted to tell him how much I love him and I was trying so very hard to tell him properly how I was feeling, and I have horrible timing with these things. Had "that" talk in the middle of the night, and had "this" talk while he was getting off work.

But... <3

<3 Did I mention I'm very lucky? He .... <333

So. Um. This is a new chapter in the story, because the last chapter ended on a very badly written cliff hanger. <3 We're still writing our story.

Edit: OH. Hey, if you guys are going "What the fucking fuck?!" talk to me. Let's let Kevin have a nice breather.

I'm going to keep track of how many novels I read this year, and how many pages. At the end of the year, it will be fun to count down my page reading.

1. Twilight by Stephanie Meyer- ohmygodamazing. I love Edward so much. He reminds me of Kevin. Worked up his being a broody vampire a biiiit much, but not to a point that I minded (No, I didn't just spoil the novel.) 560+ pages
2. New Moon by Stephanie Meyer- Equally amazing. I still love Edward, but I liked Jacob, too. Of course, Bella's just adorable. I really hope Soleil was right, and there WILL be a third book in August. 563 pages.
3. All Around the Town by Mary Higgens Clark- I didn't really care as much for this book. It was hard to get into (took about 100) pages. The author tries to do the Stephen King switch-a-viewpoint method, but the grounds of the book had so much more promise with that than what she actually utilized. I did eventually get sucked in, but it wasn't hard to "put down." The ending did give a sense of finality, but it was anticlimatic. The actual climax was built poorly, and the falling action was 2 pages. 341 pages.
4. The Kill Artist by Daniel Silva- It was interesting, learning about secret agencies and the Tell Aviv and Arafat. The ending was bittersweet, but I liked it. I think it's actually part of... a series. I'll have to check. It didn't say it was. 433 pages.

4 / 50 (6.0%)

That's all I've read so far. This post? Will be changed often. I love reading. If you have any suggestions? Let them Rip~

I'm currently working on: 'Salem's lot, The Mermaids of Chenonceaux, a few more horrors and a few pratchetts.

Okay.

So World of Warcraft rocks my socks RIGHT OFF MY feet.

And I'm totally going to be a moonkin.

Right now? Level 16 Tauren Druid (Horde is the best, bitches.) And... well, for shits and giggles, a human priest (level 4.)

Happy thanksgivin', folkses. :3

Okay. So I decided to make that dream a story/a series of drawings. Someone want to help me out? If so, fabulous. You have several jobs!

1. Give me advice on random things you like to see in stories, esp. ones with elves, because I decided the forest species would be elves. Why? Because it makes sense for humans that live in forests to mutate and have thinner ears that hear better. :'3 I'm wondering what they'd wear, though. Generally, I was thinking they'd go around nude in their houses and just have simple garments when moving in public, but i'm open to suggestions! :3

2. Anyone with suggestions on storyline would be loved. >_>; I just... am silly, and love to create, but then things end up unfufilled and I get frustrated and quit. I don't want to do that again.


YEY I LOVE YOU : 3